Special K

"Feed your fears and your faith will starve. Feed your faith, and your fears will!"

2011-10-31T13:31:00.008-05:00

Amen to those beautiful words by Max Lucado. My appointment this morning was one that brought that fear that I just had to try to starve with the words of my Father. I will say that my devotion last night was titled "life is Long Enough". Leading into Psam 139:16 "only God knows the number of my days...." let's just say I was even more curious of my news to come. However, through the past several months, one thing is certain- God used a megaphone approach to bring me literally on my knees to evaluate my life, my relationships, my calling for His life for me on earth. I do not know why, but I do know and feel grateful that he chose me for this to happen because I have never felt the yearning need of His arms like I have been. I will never be the same. I will never look at life the same ...life here on earth. More importantly, I know more than ever that this is definitely not our home and every life on earth is long enough-just as God created it to be. For, we all have the chance to live forever with Him someday and the music will be amaaaazzziiinnnggg!
Speaking of music, that is a huge part of my worship and time with the Lord and I love this quote...so true..."A few songs with Him might change the way you sing, forever"
As I said earlier, I know this happened for a reason and am grateful for the intimacy it has created with my savior. It is hard to create that yearning desire without the feeling of needing it. "Sometimes, God allows what He hates to accomplish what He loves"

So, MRI went fine. Dr Markert came in and went through his typical neurological exams and said my favorite words of the day "no change on the MRI"!!!! He said it has not grown. He does want copies of my neck MRI to ensure no fat deposits went down to irritate and cause any of the neck pain I am having, but he said "this is very good news you are getting" I think he always has to tell me he is giving me good news since I just stare at him mostly trying to think of other questions I had. The last thing I want is to leave with any concerns or unanswered questions. So, he will see me in a year, unless I have any new symptoms arise! Sounds good to me.

I must say that all I could think of was how absolutely blessed I was. We walked out staring in the eyes of many very sick people that clearly need prayers. Therefore, it is my prayer that you will continue your wonderful conversations with our amazing Father who chose to keep me safe for now, but clearly others are needing his peace and comfort. Much love to everyone that has called, texted or just smiled and said you are thinking about me. You will never know what it means to me, and I love you all!

I will leave you with 2 great songs to sing today,

"You are my Shield"
I will bless the Lord forever, and I will trust Him, at all times.
He has delivered me from all things, and He has set my feet upon a rock.
I will not be moved, and I'll say of the Lord:
You are my Shield, my Strength, my Portion, Deliverer, my Shelter,
Strong Tower, my very present help in time of need.

Room have I in heaven by You.
There's not a desire beside You.

"Sparrow" (Audrey Assad)
Why should I be lonely, long for heaven and home
When Jesus is my portion and a constant Friend I know
I sing because I'm happy, I sing because I'm free
For His eye is on the sparrow, His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He's watching me
Why should I be troubled when His tender word I hear
I rest on His goodness in my doubt and in my fear
I sing because I'm happy, I sing because I'm free
For His eye is on the arrow, His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He's watching me!

Thanks to my amazing Dad for driving me to Birmingham in less than a 24 hour period! He's not feeling so good himself, but a Father will do anything to take care of their children and mine is the greatest example of that, here on earth. I love you, dad!
Now, we are trying to make it back so I can walk Mickey Mouse around town to feed his sugar addiction. Toddles!

Follow up details

2011-08-20T12:15:00.005-05:00

This is a little late, but I wanted to post more details of the follow up visit to UAB. I went to the Neuro-ophthalmologist first. He basically said it was "an absolutely normal exam". I felt great after leaving there. The tech was making fun of me, since apparently I don't know how to "keep my eyes open when putting drops in my eyes". She said I was not setting a good example for my son, so she was glad he left the room. :) By the way, I have an angel of a child. He went with me to both appointments. We had to leave mamaw's house at 7am and didn't get finished until after 2. Angel. He only got fussy when he couldn't go in with me to the neurosurgeon's office visit. He was hungry by then, so mom took him to eat and voila. He truly is precious. Thank you, sweet Kade for coming with mommy. Thank you, mom, for coming with me and watching my baby! Thank you, Laura, for coming with me and then hanging out with me since my hubs couldn't come. I love you all!

So, I started the day with a blood pressure of about 100/70 and when I went to the NS appointment, it had suddenly risen to 150/80ish! say what? Of course, I argued that something was wrong with her machine. My body does something crazy when I see that brain doc.

Basically, I had out my 4 pages of question, I had one of my best friends (Laura) sitting as my scribe and my dad in the room. He answered everything and it just seems that we are going by symptoms at this point. And, from what I took from the conversation, a headache doesn't count for doing surgery (yeah)....since I have had headaches before. Even though they have become more frequent. He won't do surgery (thankfully) unless I have seizures or meningitis or vision problems, blackouts....those kind of symptoms. Praise the Lord that I am not having any of those, and he does not expect me to start having any. Basically, he said this:

1. Dermoids are very rare in the brain
2. Ruptured dermoids are extremely rare in the brain
3. I didn't have any of those symptoms the first time it ruptured (I give credit to the steroids Gio put me on in the ER so quickly so I really don't want to find out if it happens again)
4. Basically, the best thing for me to do is to try and forget about it

So, I don't have any limitations at this point...physically, medication-wise, nothing. I mean, I'm not really going to start taking gymnastics again or anything but - I could if I wanted to. Is it still weird to me? Yes. Do I feel at peace? Yes. What I do wish is that I would STOP getting STREP THROAT!!! As I write this, I have it for the 5th time now in 7 months. I mean, seriously? However, I have so very much to be grateful for at this moment.

I have been having a lot of headaches, so I started back on Topomax as a preventative and I will go see an Interventional Pain Management doc to see if there are any break through medications for when I get an acute headache, but I really do well on Topomax. My only real side effect is that I lose my love for carbonated beverages. That is not necessarily bad. So, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for all of the countless prayers. I hope that you continue to pray for complete healing and mostly the peace that is absolutely happening. I do have to go back for a scan and to see the neurosurgeon again on Halloween...(not sure how I feel about that day really) After that, I just go back annually and then maybe even every 1-2 years, depending. We shall see. He does feel confident that it is benign; however, he can't say 100%, of course, without taking out a piece...but the repeated scans will pretty much confirm by showing if and how it grows, etc. So, let's keep praying they got that diagnosis 100% correct, okee dokee? Thanks.

Special K Update
K started back to school this week and I love his teachers! Even though he is not in the class with all of his best buds from last year (except for a few), he seems very happy. I felt extremely happy after the Parent's night when I truly saw how passionate the teachers were about the kids. Thank you, Jesus, for watching over my child.

Now, prayer warriors, I ask that you pray specifically for a sweet couple that went to high school with me - Hayden and Kenny - their son, Tyler, was hit by a car and is in Children's Hospital. He is improving but please pray for complete healing and emotional healing as well for everyone.

Weekend Getaway to....Downtown Pensacola!

2011-08-05T17:11:00.002-05:00

Well, hubs and I will be staying at Courtyard Marriott this weekend downtown. I won a free night and we decided it was time for a weekend away. Bags are packed and I am waiting for Kev to come back from dropping Kade off at Mimi's house. We have zero plans which is nice.
Everything has been going great. I feel pretty good. I have been having headaches, so I started back on Topomax to see if i can prevent them. I hate taking too much tylenol and that was all i was allowed to take. Next wednesday is my UAB day, and I can't wait. Mainly, because my best friend is driving ALL the way from Austin to be with ME!!!! I love Laura Brown Sykes. I also hope to see some other great friends. My other bestie, Carin, may be in town too! So, let's pray Miss Scarlet behaves and remains intact.
Kade is growing so fast. I need to start posting some videos. He cracks me up. Diego is his new obsession. He loves to sing and dance Diego songs. Does that surprise anyone?
Congratulations to Allison! She is having another little girl! WE can't wait to celebrate Madeline's birthday with you!. Looking forward to double the precious little girl blog postings from Ally.
I will fill you all in on my weekend getaway with the hubs. Chill should be the only thing to report.

SSQ girls weekend!

2011-07-25T19:14:00.003-05:00

This past weekend was fantabulous. Darcy, Jenn and Tiff came in to Pensacola Beach for a girls weekend. We have not had one in quite a while, and it was wonderful to see them. Many fun memories were made. The only problem was that it was way too short. I had never been to Grand Marlin and we loved the food. I had heard mixed reviews, but everything we had was flawless. We went to Margaritaville the first night and it was good too. Besides the dining out, we mostly hung by the pool and in the lazy river. There's nothing like sweet girl time. I will try to post some photos.
Medical update: I have been feeling fine. I do get headaches, but I am thinking they are just my usual headaches...not even sure if it's related. I do get occasional "pressure" headaches that worry me a little, but I have to say that my anxiety is getting much less frequent. I still go back on the 10th and am anticipating good news: no surgery. Thanks to all for your continued prayers.
My sweet Kade is doing good. He goes back to daycare the week after my trip to Birmingham. I am not looking forward to that transition. Especially, since I found out he is not in the class with his favorite buddies Jordan or Colton. Woof. Rough times ahead.

Miss Scarlet - Dermoids aren't cool

2011-07-09T19:36:00.015-05:00

I wanted to write out my story to make it easier to share with others. Plus, there just might be someone else out there going through the same thing. One June 30, my life really did change. I was in a car accident, where a man ran a light and hit me on the left front side of my car. It totalled my vehicle. I hit my heat hard and developed a headache while the cop was writing out the report. I asked the cop if I should go to the ER and he encouraged me to go. He said that it would probably just get worse, and it was best to get it checked. Thank the Lord for that cop and my husband, who wouldn't let me go home anyway. Kevin said that I was talking like I was "a little out of it". I felt like I was just shaken up from the wreck.
I got to the ER, and I passed the neurological exam. However, the doc ordered a CT to see what medicine he may give me for the headache. About an hour later, things changed. I should have known something was up when the tech made me ride in a wheelchair back from the scan, as opposed to walking up there. The ER doc came in and said that there was no bleeding or anything, but they did find that I had a dermoid tumor. Apparently, I have had this since birth. These account for about .3% of all brain tumors and are benign. They occur during development. Even more rare, the tumor had ruptured. He said he consulted Dr. Gio, the neurosurgeon on call. When he walked out of the room, I texted Dr. Gio immediately. He called me right then. He explained that a dermoid was not really anything to freak out about, but he was baffled by the rupture. He had not seen that before. He told me not to panic, but he did want to do a full workup with MRI, etc. He said he was also going to contact someone at UAB. He said that I had all of them googling (how fun that made me feel). He said that it was probable that I could develop chemical meningitis. Therefore, he started me on the steroids right then. He also admitted me into the hospital.
Early the next morning, he came in and sat down beside me. This was a moment I won't forget. Just the unknown was horrifying. He said he was just going to send me to UAB right then, by ambulance (to be safe). He wanted a team looking at me. He just wasn't sure what to do, and he didn't feel comfortable keeping me here. I love a surgeon that admits when a situation is out of their comfort zone. He said that when it ruptured, it went "everywhere". He talked a little about a craniotomy as a possibility, and he said if it was an option, he would opt for the procedure. Wow. I am not sure what kind of response this is, but both times he broke news to me, my body started shaking uncontrollably like I was absolutely freezing. Not sure if that has ever happened to anyone. He said it was normal and that I was just scared. I asked him if I was going to die and he said "No". Then he paused, and said "well, Tara everyone eventually dies". I laughed and asked "but, not from this?" and he said "no". Those words still help me today. I asked him kindly to fill my veins with something to relax me at that point. I got on the phone and tried to let as many people know as possibly, so that a million prayers were going up to heaven. I wanted God to hear this one loud and clear. Boy, did he ever. Besides the ativan, I truly felt a peace knowing that I was going to be in great hands and God was definitely going to use this...God was going to use me. That, indeed, is special. He allowed this to happen, and I know that it will only be for His good.
The ambulance ride seemed like 5 minutes for me. Apparently, I talked to several people and barely even remember those moments. When I got to UAB, a dear family friend, Joyce Cox, was there to check on me. I couldn't believe it. I had not seen her in forever. I was thinking she was there to visit someone else. The visitors and blessings didn't stop there. 2 of my best friends in the world came to see me, Carin and Darcy. Darcy - with a fabulous fuzzy blanket that I have literally spread all on me right at this moment. Carin's sweet children sent me precious cards. Another dear friend, Meda, came to visit and it was a joy to see her since she moved away from Pensacola. My cousins, Stephen and Kevin and Allison, all came and made me laugh nonstop. Many more came and I truly appreciate it. Familiar, loving faces can turn one of your worst days around. I can't say enough about my family. My loving husband was right by my side the entire way. He was giving detailed updates to all of my loving friends and family that called to check on me. He was taking in everything the doctor told us, and he made me love him only more than ever. Parents and n-laws were also right beside us. Thank the Lord my precious Kade was able to be with me most of the time.
Back to the medical update...I seemed to be doing fine in the hospital. The surgeon said that I passed all his little tests they gave me every time they saw me. He said that if I was not developing symptoms, he would not do surgery. He said that it could just be left alone? He wanted to see me in 2 weeks, which is now August 10th. He wanted me to be seen by the neuro-ophthalmologist the same day. It is sitting behind my right eye. The NS did say that if he does have to perform surgery, it is in a good spot. It is sitting between 2 lobes (I think the frontal and temporal) and up against the skull. Miss Scarlet (since she lives in Tara) has made herself a cozy little spot. Apparently, she wanted to go on a little diet and distributed tiny pieces of fat throughout my brain. Signs I am to look for are meningitis-type symptoms or seizures or vision problems. As you can imagine, I am very nervous until I go back. However, Dr. Merkert was so very reassuring before I left. He also seemed like it was a strong possibility that everything would just be fine the way it is. Now, I don't know about you, but it's actually a little hard for me to be 100% comfortable with that news. I am praying for peace and assurance every day.
I have finally started The Purpose Driven Life, and I am loving it. Why didn't I go through this book sooner? God literally knocked me on my knees with all of this. I can remember one of my first mornings back at home when I woke up very early. It was very hard to just lay there, since my mind would go to worries. I turned on the christian music station on TV and just tried to fill my thoughts with peace and comfort. One of the songs that came on was The Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns. That was the one I needed. My sweet Kade came and laid down with me and we both just listened to the songs. Every one that played were beautiful music/words to my ears. I love how the Lord works. I still have that song on my phone to play during a "worry moment". Another one that has carried me through is Blessings by Laura Story. If you have never heard those 2 songs, download them immediately. I have them on my playlist on this page as well. Meditate on the words.
Thank you to everyone who continues to pray for me daily. I feel it. I will leave you with the verse that I have had to repeat more times than I can count. I have it written in my phone and at work and it has definitely been a comfort.
Psalm 91:14-16
(The Message)
"If you'll hold on to me for dear life," says God, "I'll get you out of any trouble. I'll give you the best of care if you'll only get to know and trust me. Call me and I'll answer, be at your side in bad times; I'll rescue you, then throw you a party. I'll give you a long life, give you a long drink of salvation"
-If those words aren't beautiful, I don't know what is.

Pig Skin

2010-10-23T11:37:00.012-05:00

I am back to the blogging world after a long hiatus. I am hoping to maintain it now, but life gets crazy at times. I have decided that too many women, and oftentimes men, know very little about the greatest sport on earth. Therefore, I would like to begin posting a helpful tidbit to enable you to follow a game without sounding like an idiot. My goal is to enable all the ladies out there to make their own calls. We will go through positions, their roles, formations, plays, penalties and whatever else we feel like diving into. Let the games begin:
I will skip the basics, assuming that if you are able to walk, talk, and have passed puberty...you know what an offense and defense is...so, today we will start with positions.
My husband coaches defense and I mean, he jumps up and down when his guys make a tackle, get a pic, properly wraps 'em up or recovers a fumble. If a kid reads his offense correctly, his reaction resembles when someone gives me a white cake with white icing. Therefore, we will start with defensive players. Not all of them...we will take this slowly.

Defensive Line
Defense is not really like the offense where positions are specifically defined. When we look at the basics of defense...you can start with how they line up before the play. You have a defensive line that are literally on the line of his side of the line of scrimmage. You get it? Defensive line = on the line. We will get into specifically who is on the line later.
Linebackers
Now, behind these big dudes, you have linebackers. Did you hear that? "behind" the guys on the "line"..meaning they are to the backs of the defensive line. You've heard of them. You may have 2 or 3 of them performing various functions that we will get to later.
Secondary
The other defensive players are cornerbacks and safeties. To sound impressive, let's just start calling them our secondary.
The defense, simply stated, wants to keep points off the board under that other teams's name. You know how your husband can ask you a question like, "how come there is no milk in the fridge?" and it automatically puts you on the defense? Amazingly, it doesn't make me want to run out and get milk. In fact, I try and decide if I ever want to have milk readily available for him again...I don't want him to "score" in that scenario. Ok, that may be harsh and extreme, but you get the point.
Ladies, this was your first lesson...now go watch some football and start naming those defensive players and then we will start learning their roles. War Eagle, GO GS Eagles!!! We'll get some updated Special K pics up soon.

What you might have missed...

2010-05-25T13:14:00.009-05:00

So, it has been a while. I will work on getting up some pictures of the following events and fill you in as I go. They may be out of order.

1. Mother's Day
2. 2nd 2010 Trip to L.A.
3. Kade's Graduation from Little Toddler's class
4. Brett's visit
5. Hamilton/Hackelburg/Birmingham visit

Mother's Day was excellent of course. Just time with my Kade is always fabulous. Saturday I did get to go to the beach BY MYSELF! Wow. I was loving it for about 15 minutes and then I got bored. So, I did a little shopping and got me a mother's day dress and a bathing suit. Yeah! Kevin and I had a date and went to The Wharf to see Date Night and then eat at Shuckers. It was great spending time with my baby's daddy before my day to spend wrapped up in my little boo. Here are some shots.

Baby Harper

2. Kade and I took a trip to Birmingham the first of May to see Mamaw and Papaw and take them to their annual high school reunion. Aunt Caw Caw went with us and we had so much fun! Claudia and I boosted the economy in Hamiton at a precious little boutique. We also got to see Allison, Joel and Madeline and stay with them one night. AND, Kade's future bride was in town...Mary Patton (aka Pat Pat). Wonderful wonderful trip!It was so special to take my grandparents back to their home towns and watch them smiling at old friends, family and hot spots. It doesn't get much better than those two. Agree? yes, agree.

I'm a Big Kid Now

2010-04-14T07:34:00.002-05:00

Ugh. I hate writing those words but it feels so true! I am in a hurry, but I had to tell all that my baby boy pp'd in the potty yesterday for the first time!!!!!!!!! Can you believe it? This is the beauty of daycare. Although I hated to miss the celebration, it is nice that someone else is starting this process. :) Also, the Easter bunny brought Kade a small tv for his room (yes, I know it's a bit over the top for the bunny and that will not be a ritual every year for that hare). We were trying to "transfer one bad habit to another" by getting him to fall asleep watching it in his BIG BOY BED! Although I am quite sad that my little man is not sleeping with me and daddy every night (we are parents that actually enjoyed it...probably me more than daddy), it is nice to stretch a bit more with our bad backs. Hehe. Can you believe how time flies! Pictures of the new look to the room once we get a little comforter. As the big eared mouse would say, tootles!

I'll take Jesus over Oschter Haws

2010-04-05T21:22:00.006-05:00

I often wondered, but never cared to look too hard, about how the bunny came into the picture. I mean, we have Santa at Christmas which really has nothing to do with the birth of Jesus but we also have this bunny or "Oschter Haws" as it was known in Germany in the 1500s which was the bunny that came bringing colored eggs to your house on Easter morning. This was the first time the egg and the bunny were mixed together. Springtime, bunnies, birth of a new season...yada yada I get it. But, Easter, is so much more, right? Absolutely. Not only do we get a good day with family, but we get to celebrate the fact that our Jesus brought freedom and salvation to all of us Christians and gave the opportunity to anyone that would just believe and surrender their life to him. Our sunday school teacher called is Christianity 101. I guess that is one way of putting it. He also said it is a simple concept...while it is a simple concept...living it out is not easy. He never said it would be easy. In fact, WE can not do it on our own. However, through Him (John 14:6), we can be on the winning side...eternity with Him! Thank you sir. Imagine...Mary when she saw those angels and then saw Jesus standing there! What a wonderful feeling to know that He was not defeated. That man that she loved and had so much faith...shouldn't we feel that every day?
Words from a beautiful song:

my precious son, i hear them screaming
and i am watching the face of the enemy beaming
but soon I will clothe them in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more than you know
but this dark hour...I will do nothing
but, i hear your unbearable cries
the power in your blood destroys all of the lies
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes
look down below and see the child.
trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell you why

She is why you must die

Egg Droppings?

2010-04-03T21:58:00.012-05:00

Mimi and Kade

Easter Bunny! He did not want to get to close, but he also didn't want to leave his sight.

Look at all the eggs

Well, it was an exciting day we had planned today. However, it ended up going a little differently...but still wonderful. I just love hanging with Kade. Even riding in the car is fun because he always has something to say. Last night, Kade was coughing all night long. It was so frequent that I tried laying with him on the couch at one point to keep him sitting up some. He has drainage...I was thinking allergies...but now he has a 100degree temp. Not sure what is up. Needless to say, we were up literally all night long. I think we finally got some good sleep between 6am and 8:30ish. The biggest problem is that I didnt even go to bed until 2am because we showed the house this morning and it was mommy's time to clean. By the time the realtor showed up this morning, my hair was still wet and Kade was still in pjs so we just rushed outside. We went to Memorial Park, which is where we had planned to go at 9:30. My friend Carey told me about her church putting on this Egg Hunt where a helicopter drops the eggs. They had the Easter bunny, jumping things and tons of eggs. Kade enjoyed watching everything, but he wasnt really in a playful mood. He sort of goes up and down because something is going on. Anyway, here are some pictures of the fun. We were supposed to go to our Sunday School get together at the beach after that, but he was ready to zonk and well, so was I. Therefore, we took a 2 1/2 hour nap together. Yep, I said it. I nap whenever I can...I mean, my house was clean and there was nothing else I just had to do. I loved every second. Mimi came over later to give him his basket and he dove into the candy. We are looking forward to a fabulous Easter Sunday. I love Easter. I've been trying to take myself back to the holy week and reflect on what was going on at the time each day and today, I started thinking about something. Maybe I just need to research it more...but, where did Jesus go after he died and before he rose again? I mean, where did His physical body and spirit go? I mean, it wasn't there, but does it talk about those specifics anywhere? Does anyone know or is this one of those questions I just need to add to my list? Until tomorrow, night night.

Thank Goodness for THIS Friday...a look back

2010-04-03T00:52:00.003-05:00

There is no way I could begin to tell this story better than the scripture that brought it to us. I simply can not even begin to know what this event must have been like to actually be there and watch all of my sins be nailed to a cross by way of a Savior. Absolutely nothing in this world matters but this man who died such a brutal and humiliating death so that I could be here and be set free. How could we even call it a decision to follow Him? But, it truly is. Not only is it a decision to surrender my life to Him, but it is a multitude of decisions we face every day to ensure that we are pleasing to Him. Thank you thank you thank you for dying for me. Thank you thank you thank you for taking the worst pain one can imagine so that I can live. Thank you thank you thank you for forgiving me when I am absolutely not worthy of the forgiveness. Thank you thank you thank you that I can feel your presence and talk to you and know that all of my needs are met. Thank you thank you thank you for the best family one could ever imagine. I can not wait until Sunday when we can celebrate the fact that you were not defeated. We were not defeated. We may feel defeated at times, particularly in this world around us. However, we have already won and one day I will be sitting at your feet.

John 19

Jesus Sentenced to be Crucified

1Then Pilate took Jesus and had him flogged. 2The soldiers twisted together a crown of thorns and put it on his head. They clothed him in a purple robe 3and went up to him again and again, saying, “Hail, king of the Jews!” And they struck him in the face.
4Once more Pilate came out and said to the Jews, “Look, I am bringing him out to you to let you know that I find no basis for a charge against him.” 5When Jesus came out wearing the crown of thorns and the purple robe, Pilate said to them, “Here is the man!”

6As soon as the chief priests and their officials saw him, they shouted, “Crucify! Crucify!”
But Pilate answered, “You take him and crucify him. As for me, I find no basis for a charge against him.”

7The Jews insisted, “We have a law, and according to that law he must die, because he claimed to be the Son of God.”

8When Pilate heard this, he was even more afraid, 9and he went back inside the palace. “Where do you come from?” he asked Jesus, but Jesus gave him no answer. 10″Do you refuse to speak to me?” Pilate said. “Don’t you realize I have power either to free you or to crucify you?”

11Jesus answered, “You would have no power over me if it were not given to you from above. Therefore the one who handed me over to you is guilty of a greater sin.”

12From then on, Pilate tried to set Jesus free, but the Jews kept shouting, “If you let this man go, you are no friend of Caesar. Anyone who claims to be a king opposes Caesar.”

13When Pilate heard this, he brought Jesus out and sat down on the judge’s seat at a place known as the Stone Pavement (which in Aramaic is Gabbatha). 14It was the day of Preparation of Passover Week, about the sixth hour.
“Here is your king,” Pilate said to the Jews.

15But they shouted, “Take him away! Take him away! Crucify him!”
“Shall I crucify your king?” Pilate asked.
“We have no king but Caesar,” the chief priests answered.

16Finally Pilate handed him over to them to be crucified.

The Crucifixion

So the soldiers took charge of Jesus. 17Carrying his own cross, he went out to the place of the Skull (which in Aramaic is called Golgotha). 18Here they crucified him, and with him two others—one on each side and Jesus in the middle.
19Pilate had a notice prepared and fastened to the cross. It read:|sc JESUS OF NAZARETH, THE KING OF THE JEWS. 20Many of the Jews read this sign, for the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city, and the sign was written in Aramaic, Latin and Greek. 21The chief priests of the Jews protested to Pilate, “Do not write ‘The King of the Jews,’ but that this man claimed to be king of the Jews.”

22Pilate answered, “What I have written, I have written.”

23When the soldiers crucified Jesus, they took his clothes, dividing them into four shares, one for each of them, with the undergarment remaining. This garment was seamless, woven in one piece from top to bottom.

24″Let’s not tear it,” they said to one another. “Let’s decide by lot who will get it.”
This happened that the scripture might be fulfilled which said,
“They divided my garments among them
and cast lots for my clothing.”[a] So this is what the soldiers did.

25Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother, his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene. 26When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to his mother, “Dear woman, here is your son,” 27and to the disciple, “Here is your mother.” From that time on, this disciple took her into his home.

The Death of Jesus

28Later, knowing that all was now completed, and so that the Scripture would be fulfilled, Jesus said, “I am thirsty.” 29A jar of wine vinegar was there, so they soaked a sponge in it, put the sponge on a stalk of the hyssop plant, and lifted it to Jesus’ lips. 30When he had received the drink, Jesus said, “It is finished.” With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.
31Now it was the day of Preparation, and the next day was to be a special Sabbath. Because the Jews did not want the bodies left on the crosses during the Sabbath, they asked Pilate to have the legs broken and the bodies taken down. 32The soldiers therefore came and broke the legs of the first man who had been crucified with Jesus, and then those of the other. 33But when they came to Jesus and found that he was already dead, they did not break his legs. 34Instead, one of the soldiers pierced Jesus’ side with a spear, bringing a sudden flow of blood and water. 35The man who saw it has given testimony, and his testimony is true. He knows that he tells the truth, and he testifies so that you also may believe. 36These things happened so that the scripture would be fulfilled: “Not one of his bones will be broken,”[b] 37and, as another scripture says, “They will look on the one they have pierced.”[c]

The Burial of Jesus

38Later, Joseph of Arimathea asked Pilate for the body of Jesus. Now Joseph was a disciple of Jesus, but secretly because he feared the Jews. With Pilate’s permission, he came and took the body away. 39He was accompanied by Nicodemus, the man who earlier had visited Jesus at night. Nicodemus brought a mixture of myrrh and aloes, about seventy-five pounds.[d] 40Taking Jesus’ body, the two of them wrapped it, with the spices, in strips of linen. This was in accordance with Jewish burial customs. 41At the place where Jesus was crucified, there was a garden, and in the garden a new tomb, in which no one had ever been laid. 42Because it was the Jewish day of Preparation and since the tomb was nearby, they laid Jesus there.

Run, Baby, Run

2010-04-03T00:15:00.010-05:00

It's been a while. I'll just have to start with last weekend. Kevin had his big 2010 Esca-Santa Rosa County Championship Track meet that he put on at West Florida. Yours truly was the medaler and Historian for the day. I got to give the kids on the podium their medals and t-shirt and then be the photographer. I have to say that I really did enjoy myself. High school kids are just fun. Made me miss my high school days with all my girls. Well, we didn't exactly run around tracks for fun, but we did DANCE...can I get a wha wha ladies??? Are you gonna go my way? Nostalgic.
Here a few pics of the grand event and I will say that Mr. Kevin Rollins (aka hubs) did a fabulous job with the organization. I mean, it took every waking moment for the past few months, but it did pay off. Thank you to Andrews Institute for sponsoring! You were well represented.

...and here is Kev in action

...and then there is me in action

look at that muscle definition...oh, to be young again (not that i had that)

i like this one

...one fast chica "Pookie"

Another year added for lily-loo

2010-03-14T15:50:00.012-05:00

This has been a gorgeous weekend. This weather is my absolute favorite...not too hot but sunny sunny sunny. Saturday, I ran in the McGuire's race. I always say I wish my best friends would come down and run it one year and I never remember until race day. People dress crazy...and I mean crazy. How can you run with a pot of gold attached to you? I did see Superman or Batman leaning over about to puke at about mile 2. One superhero...down. I bet he felt awesome. I ran it in 28:30 which wasn't what I wanted but I felt like I had to stop every 10 feet to go around someone or jump up on the curb to keep moving forward. There seemed to be way many more walkers this year...the party at the end is what entices most people. I had to leave right after to get ready for Lily's 4th birthday party. She had it at Funplex in Gulf Breeze. It is a gymnastics training facility. They had the trampoline, bouncy floors, awesome pit, swinging rope. I am considering having my 33rd birthday party there since I had so much fun. Be aware...those pits are way harder to get out of than you would imagine. especially after running in a race. But, worth every dive. Thanks for a fun party Lily...so fun watching you grow into a little lady.

Dad thought it looked fun...until he couldn't get out by himself.

Me and my Boo...

And the winner is.........

2010-03-08T22:20:00.008-06:00

The Whitest Kids You Know... (I was just to the right)

Kelli and I had to take a looksie...

This was the fabulous Anais that got us into Skybar...her fab bro "not pictured"

Pictures were forbidden...but I thought I would sneak one of Elton's way...cant miss that hair

Kelli! Kel was the winner of my heart last week. That gal has always been the wazzle, but she overdid it for me this time. I was fortunate enough to go visit Kelli in LA and work at the 25th anniversary Independent Spirit Awards. Most people have asked me what they are? Basically, a mini version of the oscars lately since many of these indie films are "making it big" such as Precious, Crazy Heart, Last STation, etc. Rememeber Juno? Those are all fine examples. I want to give a run down of my trip since everyone has been asking, plus...I don't want to ever forget it! Thank you Kelli for a magnificent visit to sunny cali and for enabling me to rub the elbow of the fab Stepmom, Susan Surandon.
I arrived Wednesday in a nauseated state from the plane ride...I felt as if I had been to the fair for 5 hours and sat in the teacups the entire time. Rough feeling. However, after being on ground for a couple of hours, I was up to par. We had our meeting about the award show and given our assignments. Mine: The Whitest Kids You Know...Who are they, you might ask. They are a comedy troupe that performs sketch comedy on IFC (Indie Film Channel). Kelli had Marisa Tomei...too fun. Others had presenters like Ryan Reynolds, Jodi Foster, Ben Stiller, Ethan Hawke, Matt Dillon...the list goes on. We left the meeting all excited about our peeps. That night, Kelli and a friend of hers (and his sister) took us to Skybar and to the Roger Room afterwards. It was a fantastic little place and we walked right by Mr. David Spade himself.
Thursday, Kelli had to work. I had a wonderful time shopping at The Grove, sipping Coffee Bean, and had lunch with my long lost friend Gabe from Pelham! We ate at Santa Monica and I had delicious fish tacos. Yumsie. Now, for a big moment...Kelli tells me that we are going to Susan Surandon's pre-oscar party at SkyBar that was a ping pong event. There, I literally rubbed elbows with my favorite Stepmom, cut a rug with her daughter, and chatted a moment with Pauly Shore. Kelli snatched Jamie Fox's ping pong ball and we also saw the cast from Big Bang Theory there. I am sure there were many more that we missed, but we had a blast! One funny story: this guy kept staring at me and finally came and stood next to me and said "hello. you are an actress". When I smiled and said "no", he took off. Wow...those some shallow folks.
Friday, we did a little more shopping after sleeping in and enjoying the laziness. That night we headed for the award show. It was amazing. I have never enjoyed people watching that much. There were way too many stars to list that I saw. However, these were my highlights: Jodi Foster, Lenny Kravitz, Marisa Tomei, Pierce Brosnan (James Bond), Helen Mirren, Elton John, Mariah Carey, Collin Ferrell, Ryan Reynolds (um, hello), Ethan Hawke (i use to have his poster on my wall...Mystery DAte and Reality Bites were some favs), Matt Dillon (hello..Singles), the list goes on. James Bond was pretty cool...and doesnt everyone remember Remington Steele? It was amazing. My guys were very nice, but seemed a little preoccupied. I think they thought I was a stalker because I couldn't take my eyes off of them. Just doing my job. Seriously, they were cool peeps. The red carpet (actually blue) was fun and a little overwhelming. I did get a great gift bag with some goodies and gift certificates. I highly recommend that job!!! The afterparty was fun as well. I did have someone ask if they could take my picture. :) How fun is that?
The next day we went shopping and then hung out with some of Kelli's friends. It was truly wonderful. I had some incredible sleep and many wow moments. I can't wait to do another one!

Surprise, she's X5!

2010-02-26T23:57:00.003-06:00

Mamaw Rollins had a surprise party tonight for her 75th. Whohoo. She doesn't look a day over 45. I got a nice shot of her when she first spotted us at Bonefish. Lovely evening.

It's Friday! That has got to be one of my favorite quotes. Tomorrow is a shopping day for mommy. I am heading to Mobile to find some actual selections of fabric that has been sewn into fabulous designs. Pensacola is not numero uno at that little activity. Then, we head to daddy's track meet. I hope it is pretty like it was today. It was a little chilly but GORGEOUS! I hate working on a gorgeous day.

On another note, "losing" is not usually a good thing and "13" is typically viewed as a bad number. However, I love them both!!! Because when it comes to lbs., i'll take them both. That's right, 13...outta my life. finally. we are on a roll.

Weekend and countdown!

2010-02-22T19:10:00.010-06:00

A few pictures from Kade's valentine's day party. So precious watching them all hand out valentines.

This past weekend was fantastic, as usual. I'm so in love with weekends that it's really annoying. I am "whipped" indeed. Friday night was fun with the cousins. Chad and Lindsay took a vacation away on an FCA Trip so Granna and Papaw had their chics. We went over for pizza on friday night. Saturday, we had the best time at Reed's 2 year old birthday party. He is in Kade's class and had it at Triple Play...a hidden indoor treasure! So fun and age appropriate. Most of his classmates attended and 3 of his teachers. It was cute. Here's some cute pics.

This was taken sunday at church.

This is the 3 stooges at grannas watching...Babyboost(greatest or worst creation ever...I haven't decided)

Birthday boy with my Kade!

The countdown is for my trip to L.A.!!! A week and a half it is. I am so excited...a little anxious about the flight (nothing a little anti-anxiety pill won't cure...along with prayer of course). However, the blonde highlights have doubled just thinking about it...well, and a trip to Style. Thanks Sarah...ahh blonde, how I have missed thee. Isn't it amazing what a little color can do for a girl? Love it.

Boo is 2 and 3 old hates that brightened my weekend

2010-02-14T15:41:00.006-06:00

This weekend has been wonderful. My little boy turned 2 today. I can hardly believe it. We had a great little party with mostly fam. We started at the park. I was a little worried because of snow 2 days earlier but it turned out to be gorgeous. We stayed for about 30 minutes and then headed to the house for cake. Now, I must start by saying I hate theme birthday parties. BUT, I gave in because of my whole family's love for Mickey. Also because it required bright colors which makes me happy. I made Kade's precious little outfit that he wore...fabulous royal blue cords. I also hate turtle necks (on me, on kade or anyone for that matter), but it's been so bitterly cold...I gave in again. It couldn't have been cuter. Kade got way too many gifts, of course and we had delicious cake from Publix..highly recommended. So affordable and so cute and so yummy. Well, the party was short but very sweet. Today, my one true valentine gave me heart earrings with diamonds in the middle. Now, I know this post has a lot of hates....I have always hated heart jewelry. Normally, I would have said something smart like "is it really the thought that counts when i've said I hate heart jewelry my whole life?" but once my little valentine was born on this wonderful holiday...hearts became my world. I love them and welcome them in any form. And, my new bling bling is gorge! Thanks to my wonderful hub for decorating my ears and decorating my life. My two special K's are the best accessories. Well, enjoy some pics from the party. Tonight, we head to see Marti Mc...belt it out. Much love, mickey, turtlenecks and hearts to all!!!!

My Kev

2010-02-07T11:49:00.004-06:00

Who is my favorite man in the world? Who puts up with my attitude and loves me so? Who is a hotty? Who thinks I'm hot, or at least that's what he tells me? Who is the best teacher in the world? Who has the strongest passion for his career of anyone I know? Who is a precious man of God? Who is the coolest dad (besides ronnie)? Who likes to take naps as much as I do? Who is the greatest hubs in the world? Who thinks I am great even when no one else would? Who...who dat...who...???
My Kev

"Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth: for thy love is better than wine." Song of Solomon 1:2

Muffins for Mom

2010-02-06T16:11:00.004-06:00

27:13

2010-02-06T14:08:00.004-06:00

How about that for my 5k this weekend? With a huge bridge in the route. Angie and I were hoping for just under 30. It seems our hard work is paying off. And, 9 1/2 lbs down now! Cholesterol, I will kick you in the LDL. Angie, thank you for being my workout buddy and friend.
Friday, was Muffins for Mom at Kade's school. I will upload pictures sometime this weekend. He was rockin' his "I (heart) mom" shirt. Coolest kid ever. He loved me being there and then he was ready to come home with me. Poor kid. I know he had fun though when I left. The new school is going great.
On another note, I really miss my best friends. I am blessed to have wonderful friends here and family too, but there is something about my favorites...and you know who you are. I miss you. Life is just not the same without being able to drive on over and watch chic flicks, quote the entire thing, eat or should I say fight over food, and just laugh and laugh and laugh. Or, even sitting in silence is never awkward. I hope that all of you have those kind of friends, or at least one. We were really brought together at a christian camp. We knew each other, but that week was instant connections. Not merely conincidence...spirit driven. Thank you Lord for giving me the best friends I could ever ask for!

dancing for some food

2010-02-03T20:41:00.000-06:00

Trying a video. Love my flip

2010-02-03T20:18:00.001-06:00

Writer's Block

2010-02-03T12:44:00.005-06:00

I have been out of the blogging lately. I guess you could say it's writer's block. I a starting to wonder why anyone would care about my posts, with the exception of some gorgeous child in candids. I finally got a chance to also sit and really spend some time on the computer. Kade is a sick pup today. I rushed to an early morning meeting while papaw watched over him and now I am here until Shelby can come watch him. Oh, the joys of a working mother.
Life has been steady and sweet since the new year. I discovered from my physician that I now have high cholesterol and low vitamin D. Go figure. Do we really have to grow older? I feel like I do everything pretty good...i eat right, i exercise but still my cholesterol is high. They say the family can be the cause. I hate to blame Velma Jean for this, but if she is looking and feeling as hot as she is at her age, i'll take the high cholesterol since that's pretty much the only ailment she's ever had. Therefore, I am on a great path to healthiness. I am not really "dieting" but I am trying to watch every bite I put into my mouth and make sure it is of some value. I am also working out pretty regularly, thanks to my buddy Angie. There is something about a workout partner that is so fantastic. You get friendship, wellness and weight control all in one package. Thanks, Anj. Results since Dr.: 8 lbs down

Kade is almost 2! That makes my throat hurt just writing it. My how precious time can be. Just yesterday, I was waddling down the halls of the hospital waiting for his arrival. I had no idea the joy life has to offer. I am so thankful and blessed that God allowed Kevin and I to have Kade and share him with the world. He is truly precious. We even reached a turning point today at the Dr. No tears until he jabbed the stick down his throat...I hate that thing too! He even gave him a high five. This is huge. All he has ever done is scream bloody murder at the doctor. My baby is growing up.

Exciting news: I have booked a flight to L.A. I get to work the Independent Spirit Awards with my fabulous sister-n-law Kelli. She is really a good one to know. :)
I will be rubbing elbows with some of the weirdest yet fascinating and talented peeps in the world. Holla. More to come on that one.

Well, hope this update has not put anyone to sleep or maybe that would be a good thing with some of you new mothers.
I leave you with this verse. How deep is this one? Yet, so reassuring to know that we can simply call on our Lord and He will answer:

Psalm 116

I love the LORD, because he has heard

my voice and my supplications.

Because he inclined his ear to me,

therefore I will call on him as long as I live.

The snares of death encompassed me;

the pangs of Sheol laid hold on me;

I suffered distress and anguish.

Then I called on the name of the LORD:

“O LORD, I pray, save my life!”

Gracious is the LORD, and righteous;

our God is merciful.

Kade's 2009 Book

2010-01-23T07:53:00.001-06:00

I made this Christmas book for grandparents. Hope you enjoy!

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Amanda

2009-12-23T14:25:00.002-06:00

Sorry, I haven't posted lately. Just wanted all of you to go to her blog and listen to her sing Carrie Underwood's new song..."change the world" (i think that's the name). she's amazing! Amanda and Brett from my page.

Sleep

2009-11-03T17:40:00.002-06:00

Kade spent the night with Mimi last night. She took off today to play with her grandbaby. This was just the 3rd night he has been away from me, and yes, I still hate it. However, I did sleep so very soundly and woke up at 8:30!!! That is the time I should be entering my office. Woops. I still made it by 9 but wow. It felt great. I still don't get that feeling of "yeah, baby is away" but maybe that hits when you have multiples. I know he had so much fun with his Mimi though and that time is so important. My mamaw and papaw have been so very dear to me. They were married 62 years this past Sunday. Can you even imagine that? Wow. The Lord has been so evident in their lives and our family is who we are today because of their love for one another and their love for their family. Velma Jean and Eugene are a couple that you could write a book about with all their hilarious moments and their unconditional love. I can't wait to sit with them again and eat some of that yummy homemade breakfast Velma J cooks up in the kitchen. That kind of smell that wakes you up in the morning praising the Lord! Papaw has been a little forgetful lately which has really taken its toll of mamaw. He gets mad and blames her for not being able to drive. It's so tough to watch, but at the same time, it's truly precious to see just how much she cares for him. He worries her to death, but she would sit by his side 24/7 if she had to and wait on his every need. Once again, unconditional love. I love you Jean and Gene and I can't wait to get my arms around you both!

My little model

2009-11-01T21:14:00.003-06:00

These are a few I took of Kade. I truly do have a gorgeous kiddo. I like to capture those good looks as often as I can. (Am I supposed to be a humble mom?)...nah.

A Happy Spook Day

2009-11-01T20:44:00.005-06:00

Halloween weekend was fun filled. Saturday started with a nice workout and then a trip to a Fall Festival which was soooooo crowded. 30 minutes was all we could do there. Kade and I took a lovely 2 1/2 hour nap and then we got ready for our evening. We had a fun night with the cousins. So, Kade was supposed to be Dwight Shroot from the Office, but the weather was a little chilly and my mother forbid it since she doesn't even know who he is. So, the skeleton pajamas it was. I took my self to Target and sqeezed into a child's skeleton costume to twinky it with my little bones sidekick. We took the kids on the hayride in Chad's neighborhood (compliments of the Medlocks) and the kids would hop off and trick or treat. Kade got the hang of it pretty quick. Enjoy the pics!

Long Time, No Blog

2009-10-19T22:06:00.005-05:00

Kade and I modeling in the Women's Board Fashion Show

The hospital gown I made for Leslie! Isn't is precious? Isn't she precious?

I'm baaaackkk! I know all of you readers (or maybe 1) have been frantically waiting this post. nah. Well, life has been getting better and better. I don't think it's necessarily the circumstances but I have been diving into some biblically based books and God's word and just trying to surround myself with positive things. I am blessed. Fall is in the air and I couldn't be happier. I just hope it stays. It makes boot camp a little nicer. Kade has started First Baptist preschool and he has some wonderful folks watching him the hours they are not open. He loves his teachers and is bringing home precious art work. I'll have to post some of that when I take a pic. There's really no way to catch up, but I will tell you about this past weekend. We went to see Playhouse Disney Live and the kiddo loves some Mickey Mouse. We came home and carved a Mickey pumpkin and made a halloween "Boo" cake. Sunday was a nice day and I strolled (much further than I thought) to the Greek Festival downtown for some yummy food. I love my weekends. Have I mentioned that before? I think I have shared a love song with you before for my weekends. They simply go to fast. Ga Tech beat the #4 team in the country. Congratulations to my little brother....the best runningback coach in the country. For any Division 1 team interested, please post a comment and you could be the lucky one to get him. West Florida didn't pull through, but we had fun wrapped in our blankets in the stands. Auburn, well, let's just see how they do next week.
Thought for the day: Who thought...let's cut a face or other objects into a pumpkin?

10

2009-09-13T19:16:00.002-05:00

Well, last Wednesday I forgot to post my weight loss. What's that...1-0. Oh yea. However, I had a traumatic experience that I am choosing not to write on the internet that has really thrown off my meals. Therefore, I am starting back at the strict nutrisystem plan tomorrow. Everyone neeeds a little time off. Most of you know the story, but if you don't...we are fine. I know that ALL things work together for good for those who love the Lord...I know; however, I am really wanting to rush the "good". I am praying diligently for this, but I do have faith in knowing that God will take care of everything. He does not give us more than we can handle. Sometimes, we just go through trials to bring us closer to our Jesus. How else would He really open our eyes? If everything was perfect all the time, would we ever really feel that we need Him? Think about it. I don't think he intentionally puts us through bad things, but I do think he may "remove his blessings" from us from time to time so that He knows where we go to in times of difficulty. At his feet.

Who came to visit?

2009-09-02T17:31:00.004-05:00

My friend named Weight Loss. Whoohoo. Another 3 down for a total of 8 lost! On my way to the cover of Cosmo. Friday is a big day. I am going dark with the mane. Oh yea. Let's just change up things. Why not? So, I just had to share my good news. Hope everyone is excited about 2 more days until a long weekend. I can't wait. More time with my special K's and FOOTBALL!!!!!!!!! Go Jags!

Goal: -33lbs
Total for week: -3
Total to date: -8
25 To Go!

Wizards, anyone?

2009-08-29T16:59:00.004-05:00

Ok, so I don't have a girl and I don't have a child old enough to really care about the show, But, I LOVE Wizards of Waverly on Disney. It's just precious to me. And, guess what....that's right! The movie came out last night on Disney and I am set to record it tonight. Can't wait.

So, Kade is still a little sluggish. He has a slight temp and yucky yucky nose this morning with a HUGE surprise from the diaper monster this morning. Stuck inside on a weekend. Well, except for the bike ride downtown this morning. I know it was pushing it to take the little man out in the heat, but he didn't mind. We rode all the way down to the water and strolled through the Market downtown. I love Pensacola. Then, we headed to Sonic to get some ice, but the K was out like a light the second he hit the car seat. What is it about car seats? Later, I headed on out to the A&E Fabric store and, oh my goodness, it is spectacular. So overwhelming though. I did buy some fabric for a few things though...surprise. Will post pics once complete!

Tonight, Grammy is coming over to visit, so hubby and I make even sneak away for a movie or something special. We'll see.

Seriously, sick again?

2009-08-28T15:07:00.002-05:00

Well, Kade stayed with Kevin or my mother all summer long. Not one, I repeat, not one time did he get sick during the summer. However, the first day Kevin went back to school, Kade ran fever and had to stay out Monday and Tuesday. The following Sunday he got a fever again and stayed out Monday and Tuesday (thanks to my dad for taking off Tuesday for me). Now, all was well, and this morning they called and said Kade projectile vomited twice and I had to come get him. Yuck. Three times in two weeks. Well, here's to the start of my weekend. This beautiful weather and it looks like we will be stuck inside. I mean, he doesn't really act all that sick, but he's not eatin good. I also ran in to one place and he started like he was gonna yack. Somehow, he kept it down. I had the bag ready. So, we will not try to spread our germs around town this weekend...off to bed we go. Or, just hours on end of "Baby Boost". He's obsessed.

Shrinkage

2009-08-26T21:18:00.002-05:00

Weigh in day week 1 was fun. 5 lbs disappeared from my physique, and I'm super excited. Only 28 to go. Woof. Seems so long, but it's one week at a time now, or one meal at a time really. It really hasn't been hard. The food has been really good, except for pasta alfredo with brocolli (gag). The desserts are yummy, of course. I won't bore you with it, but I did want to share in my excitement. "I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me".

Kenny P talked me into running the 1 mile for Corporate cup games in October. I am a very slow runner, so this worries me a bit. I usually run between a 9 and 11 minute mile, depending on the day and the mileage. Very slow. My goal, however, is 8 minutes. I mean, it's just one mile, Tara. Geeze. I ran around the track today as Kevin timed me. I can do a 1/4 mile in 2 minutes, but not 4 times consecutively yet. I'll get there. I'm just repeating my verse. Holla.

Movie Quote (haven't done this in a while):
"It's a regimine, mom, like doing situps"

Solo at the cinema?

2009-08-22T14:36:00.002-05:00

So, today I realized that I need to go to the movies. Kevin has plans, Kade is going to Grammy's house. Therefore, Mommy needs some me time. However, I can't think of who to go with...so, I will go alone. If you've never gone to the movie by yourself, you should try it. No one will whisper in your ear during a scene you don't want to miss. You can down a big fat diet coke without someone saying "can I have a sip". The popcorn will have to hold off, since momma's on the osmond plan. Therefore, I'm going to see that Julia movie. Can't wait. It was a beach morning with Kade, a good nap for the youngster, a little house cleaning, a joggaroo and then the movies for me. Yipee.

Nutrisystem or malnourishsystem?

2009-08-19T22:06:00.002-05:00

So, I got my big fat box of food on Tuesday. What did I do? Why yes, I headed out to Cactus Flower for my "last supper". Hopped on the scale this morning for an exciting venture of weight loss. I really am excited about it. However, I highly recommend taking extreme caution before giving blood the same day you start a new diet with extreme caloric reduction. Headache. I'll be singin' the nutrisystem song with Marie in no time.

Goal: 33 lbs

My love for weekends

2009-08-14T18:02:00.006-05:00

I feel like I should write a love song for weekends. Words simply can not be enough. I get...Kade time, Kev time,a little later wake up time, couch time, stay up late and not feel stressed about it time, mom and dad time, sunshine time, boat time, church time...you get the picture. Work has been super busy and well, I will leave it at that on a public internet site. So much has happened since my last post. I got to see all 3 of my best friends in the whole wide world between the 1st of July and the 9th of August. Brandi, Carin and then Laura. Ahhhh. I love those chickies. Kade got to meet his future bride, Mary Patton. I also got to see Kelly Langford, who was like my sister growing up. She got to meet stud Kade. It's just been some fun time weekends. Here's a few pics.

Trust in the Lord

2009-07-14T21:58:00.002-05:00

"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths"
Proverbs 3:5,6

I've been going through some challenges lately, and I'm not really sure what God is trying to tell me or show me. This verse just keeps coming to mind. He will direct my paths because that is what He said. As I look around me at some of the saddest things happening in the world I can not help but feel truly blessed. I have an amazing family that loves me and wonderful friends. I have the greatest husband and a baby boy that to me is, perfect. I could not ask for more.

Just a quote

2009-06-25T20:57:00.000-05:00

I love this movie:

"I don't get"

"St. James, it's religious"

Good luck.

Day of Births, Never ending bike rides and super dads

2009-06-22T22:10:00.003-05:00

What a weekend! After the bed and breakfast bust, I was praying for an uphill climb to the fun time station. Saturday, I had planned on riding the yellowride bike ride with Brett in memory of my papaw Gilliland "Slick" and in honor of my papaw Pritchett, Eugene. He was planning on riding the 37 mile course and I was contemplating it, but pretty sure I would stick with 10 with the mountain bike I was borrowing. I mean, Brett trained and T did not. However, humans are much more capable than we think and mix that with T-rolls will power to do it...shazam! 37 miles in Bay Minette with many hills tested my strength, but I had a great time! I am absolutely in for next year. Here's some pics for your viewing pleasure...don't mind the oodles of perspiration.

Sunday was a wonderful day for the fathers. Kade got Kev a very cool Boston Red Sox hat, clay footprints and a dog tag necklace which he hates. It was more for the keepsake aspect of it, because I was in a cheesy...let's try to make it special kind of mood. Oh, well...went right along with the rest of my gift giving. :) Then, we celebrated 4 birthdays at moms (me, Kev, Brett and Amanda). We actually had 4 cakes..yes, my mom had to get a cake for each of us. For some reason, I was super stressed out. I don't know if it was Kade's mood or the new vitamins entering my system, but my nerves were shot and it felt like I needed another weekend. However, I did enjoy spending time with the family. Ed, Alicia and fam were also in town. Amanda's family came to the party as well...it was so good to see everyone.

Today, my actual Birthday was complete with a very busy work day and a trip to the dentist. Ugh. Can you believe I accepted that on my calendar? To finish the day and make up for the misery of work and dentist, mom bought all the girls movie tickets!!! Holla. I was super excited. The Proposal = highly recommended. Well, I will quit blabbering for now. I appreciate everyone's kind words on this birthday. Love you all.

My Gift to Kev....A Migraine?

2009-06-19T12:19:00.003-05:00

Yesterday started out being very exciting. I had a surprise for Kevin. He and I both have a birthday on Monday, but he turns the big 3-0!! I had booked a night at the Lee House, a Bed and Breakfast Inn, dowtown. It is right next to the big park and we were going to listen to Evening in Old Seville and have a nice picnic, Mom was watching Kade, sleeping in, blah blah blah. About an hour after arrival, which he was super excited about...he got a painful migraine. Ouch. We ate dinner downstairs, listened to a little of the music from the hammock in the courtyard and then went to bed early. He couldn't sleep...the air conditioner froze up, they switched our rooms, took too long to cool, T could tell K was frustrated...4:00am ...went home to get in our bed and take some stronger medication (thought about the ER)...woke up around 11am...still migraine. I mean, REALLY???? Dear Lord, please take K's headache away. It was the thought that counts, right? Happy Birthday, Kevin. I love you. Headache, I hate you, so go away. Boo.

See The Lee House here...

Ended up here...

Pros Versus Joes

2009-06-15T09:09:00.001-05:00

Watch my little brother, Brett Gilliland, on national television tonight. Spike TV. 10 CST. Tune in!!!! Go Brett G!!!

Let's step it up, Trollyo

2009-06-04T21:14:00.003-05:00

So, I've decided to really step it up a notch with my workouts and nutrition. I'm sure I will cheat at least once a day, since I became obsessed with food 31 years ago. Therefore, I need to step it up. Hubs gave me a sprint workout yesterday and my legs are feeling the consequences. I love that feeling. Inspired by my friend Cinda (high five girl), Tara needs to abstain from calories over a certain threshold and kick some hiny and lose 20 lbs. Maybe putting it out there will help with the accountability factor. In other words, I am asking to be added to your prayer list. I guess that means I have to weigh in, so we'll get on that dreadful piece of equipment in the morning. Evening weigh ins are a bad idea. ...let's add another workout playlist on that ipod and increase that VO2 max me.

MQ: Does nobody like the movie quote game as much as I do. It's not really that fun to play by myself. Trust me...I do that all the time already. Love you anyway.

My Anniversary!

2009-05-25T22:04:00.002-05:00

"How sweet it is to be loved by you!"

Kevin and I walked down the aisle 7 years ago today. It seems like yesterday and forever ago all at the same time. So much has happened. We have grown so much closer. The road is not always easy, but we have a foundation that will not crumble. God has blessed us so much. Now, we have a precious child to share this life with, and I don't think I could ask for more than my family. Thank you, Kevin, for marrying me.

Thank You to our Armed Forces

2009-05-25T21:56:00.002-05:00

"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13

Today is a day we are supposed to reflect on those individuals that have served or may be serving our country now. Most important, we are to remember those that have lost their life so that we may have our freedoms and protection in this amazing country. I just want to thank all of you that have served. These people are willing to lay down their life for others and our Father said this is the greatest love. I hope they realize every day how much we appreciate them. I can think of some of my favorite things to do, and none of them could be done if it were not for men and women that gave their life for our freedome here. Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!

I'm A Seamstress!

2009-05-23T13:20:00.003-05:00

My first finished product. A reversible bubble for my Special K. What do you think? Tara's biz will be opening this fall. Just kidding. I have a lonnnnnnnggg way to go. Big Thanks to Mary Lou who so graciously lets us women come learn to sew at her house every Monday. It's so much fun...

New Kicks

2009-05-21T20:24:00.004-05:00

Comfort Zone had these funtastic little kicks called Five Fingers. How fun are they?

http://www.vibramfivefingers.com

Mother's Day Pics & A Quote!

2009-05-18T22:17:00.006-05:00

Kade gave me a beautiful, new smell-good Scofield bible for Mother's Day! I was so excited. I've been using FCA bibles for quite some time now, but I wanted my own big ole book of love and my little boo got me one. Then, I gave him his first official lesson. I had to beat it into him a little, but I think I got the point across. Love your momma or else. Thanks, K...you are my favorite. :)

Here's one of my favs!
MQ: "it is easier to get killed by a terrorist than to get married over the age of 40. "That's no true." "But it feels true." "It feels true, because it is true"

Mother's Day

2009-05-17T15:21:00.003-05:00

I haven't blogged since Mother's Day. I am currently at my mom's house, so I can't post the pictures I took. I have put some on facebook already. I just wanted to put this fun collage of my wonderful mother up. I can't even begin to say how grateful I am for my mother and Kevin's mother. We are blessed. And, this journey of motherhood is so incredible. I never want to take a moment of this for granted. Kade gave me a beautiful new bible. I have already enjoyed reading the beautiful scripture our heavenly father gave to us to carry us through this life. I am so thankful he allows me to have a record of what He has done, what He will and can do and who He is. Thank you, Lord, for my precious son and all that you have given me. Thank you for, first, giving me such a Godly mother to show me who you are!

Sew, Stitch, Seam, Go

2009-05-04T22:23:00.003-05:00

This evening marks a day in history. I have begun to learn how to make clothes for my baby! Whoohooo. The fabulous Mary Lou has women over every Monday evening to learn how to sew or (if you already know how) just to sew together. It's so fun! I have started on a reversible bubble for my baby. And...she has a monogram machine, so get ready Special K. Momma's ideas will end up on your skeleton. Smooch.

Come on people with this movie quote. This MQ is one of the greatest chic flicks of all time. Here's MQ #3. Do you not like my game? I can just give you the script until you get this one.

"I know exactly who I am sweetheart. I'm a guy that came a long way for lunch"

another..

"if you haven't noticed, I am throwing myself at you!"

Kade or Kate?

2009-05-01T17:02:00.002-05:00

Kade put this on his head while I had walked out of the bathroom for a second. I don't even wear headbands...he's very genius. Stay away from H1N1...eat less pickled pig ears.

No one got the last movie quote and it's so classic. Here's another from the same movie...

"Finger painting?"

Who Gets the Idol Title?

2009-04-28T20:20:00.005-05:00

Any AI fans out there? Even my husband watches it. It simply draws you in. It is now down to the Top 5. Personally, the only person who might put out a CD I would buy would be Kris Allen. However, Adam Lambert clearly has the best vocal ability...sometimes a little manic, but impressive. Danny, is that loveable guy with a great raspy voice. I could see him putting out a contemporary christian album and doing very well. Matt is that JT wannabe, but he is good if you listen to that type of music. The chic has great vocals and she reminds me of a cross between KC and Stefani. So, that narrows it down to who? Who will stay or who will go? My vote would be Matt. Sorry.

MQ: "honey, where I come from we stand for the national anthem"

Kade loves loves loves his Mamaw. She ate it up!

Happy Birthday, Nikki!

Kade was just a talking to Papaw while he was sleeping.

Excuse the rough look...

Just a Quote

2009-04-27T16:25:00.001-05:00

"that ain't no kitten, lady. That's a jumbo size sewer rat"

Country Music Half Marathon = Hot, Hilly, Still Hacking

2009-04-26T21:42:00.000-05:00

First, I will say I did survive the 13.1 miles, but it was not a race I am really proud of. 1 week and 1 day before the big run, I came down with one of the worst bugs I've ever had and ended up in the ER. It STILL has not left my system. I am now with no voice at all and coughing like crazy. So, there are my excuses. Regardless, Janice, Kade and myself headed up to Birmingham then Nashville this weekend for the run. Thank you to Janice for her patience with my coughing, whispering and screaming baby for some of the time. Thank you to YaYa (Laura) for coming with us and watching baby kade during the race. Next year, it's on for all of us! So, the race was huge...like 30,000 people. It really is an amazing experience. I just hate that I was not feeling up to it. My body is just beat. The hills were crazy and so opposite from Pensacola and it was like 85 degrees or something crazy. People were dropping like flies. The first 8 miles I felt great and was having a blast and then something came over me and I started getting light headed and not feeling so great. I did not want to push myself too far so I started walking some around mile 9 and then just walked/ran the rest of it. I did run the last mile, so I could say I Finished Strong. There's no way I would walk across that finish after all the training. So, I was disappointed in all the elements, but I know I did the best I could. I am proud that I even attempted it. It was not looking good a week before. So, anyone that wants to join next year, let's go. It is very motivating with the bands and so many people running for a loved one that fought cancer or a cancer survivor. I cried like 5 times throughout the course. "Run with endurance the race that God has set before you"...Who's in for next year?

Since, no one has yet to get the last MQ..here's another from the same movie...
"like I could tip a cow by myself!"

Happy Birthday, Lindsay!

2009-04-22T23:36:00.000-05:00

Here's some pics of Lindsay's birthday dinner tonight. I also took a cute pic of Kade this morning and then made Kev take us both. The other is when Kade was introduced to the water hose...man, he loved it! The little things in life are so sweet. Love my sweet pea!

MQ for the day... "well, a plantation by any other name is just a farm, but it does roll off the tongue a little sweeter now don't it?"

Mary Patton Has Arrived!!!

2009-04-21T20:42:00.000-05:00

Congratulations to Laura & Mikey. Mary Patton was born 8lbs 10oz, 21 inches this evening. Laura pushed a while, bless her heart. All worth it! She's perfect. I'll post a pic when she sends and approves one. I wish I was there so bad! It's so hard when your very best friends are spread cross country. Kade can not wait to meet his princess. This is an arranged marriage for sure!

...this quotes mostly for Jenn, but she can't guess.
"Kimmy?"...("kimmy")..."Kimmy?"...("kimmy")

...and a Quote?

2009-04-21T10:03:00.001-05:00

I have decided to add a little fun for all in my blogging. I will now end all the posts with a movie quote! How fun is that? 90% will probably be Chick Flicks or 80s-90s classics so get the Patriot, Matrix garb out of your head. Let's begin. We'll start easy. Guess away!

"I've got news, you're gonna lose"

Bring On Baby Mary Patton!

2009-04-21T10:01:00.000-05:00

My best friend, Laura, went to the hospital to be induced this morning. They already broke her water. Come on Mary Patton! I'll keep you posted.

Our Little Joe

2009-04-20T23:37:00.001-05:00

Yes, my little brother, is going to be starring on Pros versus Joes. We are not sure when it will air, but the season premieres April 27th on Spike. Yes, it's late, but Tivo works like a charm. Here's a captured photo of the commercial that is playing...oh yes, he is on a commercial.

Room for Improvement

2009-04-20T23:16:00.000-05:00

So, I've decided I have much room for improvement at blogging. I am going to make more of an effort to keep it up to date. If for nothing else, it will be like my own little diary...just shared with the viewers. When I need to jog a memory, I can visit the blog, when I am sad and need to see kade's sweet face, I can visit the blog, when I need to remember the chronological order of something...I can visit the blog. It's sort of a spring resolution. We shall see.
I have been really really sick over the past week. Not that anyone cares, but you know you just have to tell people when you have been sick. Something about sharing it with the world makes the pain or the nausea somehow diminish...well, not really. But, we all know we feel better. Friday, I took a little trip to the ER and then the drugs they put me on...sent me on another trip. hehehe. I sort of sounded like an addict just then so I will shift gears. What I am trying to get to is that this bug that has chosen to take over my body, has really put a damper on my training schedule. I mean, the half marathon is this Saturday! I had to miss my last long run and a few short runs. However, I attempted to run this evening..hoping I could get a couple and 5 miles later!!! Oh yeah...Nashville, here I come. Say a little prayer on Saturday.

Kade was sick before me...poor kid had it on Easter morning. We didn't get to make our Easter cake on Easter, so we made it on Tuesday. Here's a pic of the affair. He loves white cake like mommy. Delish!

And, Here's some Easter pics along with Little Claire and Emma who came to town for vacation.

Easter & One Year Photos of a Supermodel

2009-04-08T14:06:00.000-05:00

www.hartmanphotos.com - Go to online viewing - Click View proofs - Go into "Lindsey and Tara" and you can see Kade along with cousins Lily and Luke in their Easter photos and his one year pics! My baby is growing up. That is a real lamb people! It was precious. Link below.

Blog versus Facebook??

2009-04-02T18:18:00.001-05:00

We spent the day at The Robinson Home on Ono. Love his diaper cover!

Kade in his 6 month frog outfit he wore last summer. Still cute as a button.

I got a Townie! I took Maddy for a ride when she came for a visit.

Obsessed with the vacuum!

Holding on

Orion

Madeline's updo from Gallery Night. Such a diva!

Kade and his favorite person in the world!

What's a mom to do? I am getting a little anxious at trying to figure out if I should post a blog or just add pics to facebook. I mean, does anybody read this thing? I find it hard to believe sometimes that people care what I have to say. However, I have the most stunning fella in the world and I know you love to see his smiling face. We shall see what happens.

Well, I am training for the Country Music Half Marathon April 25th. Week runs seems to be harder than my long weekend runs. After a day of work and trying to play with my little man, I am just too tired sometimes. Overall, it's going well and I look forward to crossing that finish line. My cousin, Laura, is planning on going to hang with the kadester while I sweat to the music. Hip hip hooray. Stay tuned!

Good Morning America!

2009-04-02T09:09:00.001-05:00

My Love, My Dove

2009-03-27T12:57:00.000-05:00

I just needed to share with all of you how simply delicious this little tasty can be. Go get you a bag!

http://www.webmd.com/news/20040601/dark-chocolate-day-keeps-doctor-away

Birmingham Weekend!

2009-03-04T21:31:00.001-06:00

These pictures are all out of wack. Some are from home when we went to the park one day, but the others are from Birmingham this past weekend. We went up for Laura's baby shower. She looks precious and we can't wait for Mary Patton to be here. Kade, here comes your future bride! The other pictures are of the snow that visited on Sunday. It was so much fun and gorgeous. It came and went quickly, which was really nice. We got to build a snowman and Kade experienced his first snow. And, look at that Madeline. Could she be any cuter? Also, I got a bike!!! I got me a Townie. It is soooo cool. I am so excited and they are installing Kade's seat this week, along with my basket. Yahoo! Many good times to come.

Transitioning

2009-02-26T10:10:00.001-06:00

My little Kade has now transitioned into the 1 year old class at his daycare. While this might sound like a big accomplishment and the teachers might tell me every day how great he is doing, it makes me very sad. I mean, who said that he could grow up? And, who says I am ready for that? Dropping him off has become much more difficult. He and Lola did move together, which helps ease my mind a little bit. However, they are much younger looking than the others and the ratio is different. Therefore, it seems like a million kids and then my little kade standing in the middle of a room full of strangers. Please tell me it is harder on me. My desire to be at home with my baby is creeping back in with a raging force. Please keep this momma in your prayers. I know the Lord is watching over my baby. I just have to pray for my own anxiety level. Until next time.

Matthew 6: 33-34
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

VO2,training for a half marathon in nashville on April 25. Wanna join? You can walk too but crazy fun music will be streaming live in the background. Imagine that finish line. Tears flowing, Marty McB belting...Do It Anyway. Come on. LYLAS, sinnywannabeya

My Hubby!

2009-02-24T08:45:00.000-06:00

Check out Kev on the Pensacola New Journal website. They ran an article on his new track facility at West Florida High.

http://www.pnj.com/article/20090224/SPORTS/902240333/1002

Pics from the Party

2009-02-22T13:27:00.001-06:00

Happy Birthday, Lola! Happy Mardi Gras all!

2009-02-21T16:15:00.000-06:00

I will post some pics later. Kade and I have had a fun filled day. We had a sleep over at Granna's house. When Chad and his whole family said they were spending the night...we suddenly felt left out. So, we all stayed! Kade and I slept on a matress in the floor. It was great. (Kevin=work=yuck) Then, after a nice jog, we headed to Lola's birthday girl. This is the one that always steals my kisses! After the party, Kade and I strolled down the rode to the Mardi Gras parade and caught some beads. His first! It was fun, and he sported the bling bling beads he caught. Hope you are all having a wonderful Saturday with your family. Now, we are with daddy doing what we all love most...relaxing at the hizouse!

VO2, this am i ran 4 miles in approximately 38 minutes and 15 seconds. it was exhilarating. I could feel the lbs shedding off my physique. so, i rushed to the party to indulge in some sugary bday cake with a spoon full of ice cream. however, i did leave half the dessert on the plate..i hear that's a good way to start. and cholesterol can be good too..HDL or LDL, which is doc referring to? maybe you heard incorrectly and he was congratulating you on the high HDL quantity. And, you've taken up jogging. slap hands!
LYLAS,
Skinnywannabeya

The Past Year

2009-02-16T16:12:00.000-06:00

I can't even begin to gather all of my thoughts to write anything worthy that explains how I feel about my first year of motherhood. God has done a mighty work in this house. I should thank him every second I breathe for giving me such a wonderful family. It makes you even more thankful of the rest of your family, down to the parents of your grandparents. I feel like the values they instilled in my grandparents absolutely made my mother and father the Godly couple they are and example they are to all of us in the family. My precious grandparents surprised me for Kade's first birthday. I was jokingly (well, maybe I really wanted them to succumb) calling them often saying how sad it was they had to miss Kade's Birthday. Well, low and behold...mom watched Kade Friday night so Kevin and I could have a Valentine's Dinner and they were at mom's when we got there! So fun! It would not have been the same without them. Thank you Mamaw and Papaw for repeatedly showing your love to your family...you are sooooo appreciated!
Then, we come to my parents who would literally lay down their lives for a stranger. I can't express how much I love and appreciate all they do for me and our entire family. Selfless and unconditional love is all I can say. If I could just be 1/2 of the parents they are to me, I would be happy.
Now, we get to Kade. Aside from my salvation and my husband, the greatest gift God has given me. It is truly the purest love. That little booger can keep me awake every hour of the day and night and still totally and absolutely win my heart over again and again. I am consumed with love for this person. I truly can not believe he was given to me and Kevin. Looking at back at those pictures where he is swaddled up like a glow worm just make me see how fast life can pass us by. Now, he is walking around like he is something....and he is! I hope all of you reading have had the chance to meet this amazing little person. I look forward to every moment I share with him and it is my prayer that God will use him to glorify Him in this world in all that he does.

VO2, walking 1 mile and running 1 mile is really no different. You still burn about 100 calories per mile..so they say. DVR is hard to give up, but maybe we have to start doing so? Yuck. Love you, skinnywannabeya

Smooches All Day

2009-02-15T14:13:00.001-06:00

More Birthday Pics!!!

2009-02-15T11:58:00.000-06:00

Please note Lola...Kade's little lady at school. She tries to steal my kisses! Lola is the one that in the first week of school the teacher said Kade put his arm around her and laid one right on the smackers. It was love at first sight.

The Birthday Boy!!!

2009-02-14T17:25:00.000-06:00

There will be many more pictures to come, but here are a few for those of you anticipating the Prince!

Home with my Baby

2009-02-13T08:30:00.000-06:00

Well, we are getting ready for the big day tomorrow. My baby Kade will be 1!!!! He is growing so fast and I am in awe at the new things he does on a daily basis. Kevin and I were watching him clap this morning and we just love this age. He is walking and loves to just pop up and take off. He waves and even says a few little words and may more that we just can't understand. What a joy motherhood is! Thank you, Jesus, for this precious baby boy! I am home today just hanging out with my little man and we are about to take a yo baby pie to daycare to celebrate with some friends.

Please come!

2009-02-12T08:37:00.001-06:00

Brrrrr

2009-01-19T20:57:00.000-06:00

Look at those blue eyes...a hunkahunkahunka

my valentine...sorry, kev

I mean, does it get any cuter than this. It was freezing in Pensacola...it's the beach for crying out loud!

late pics

2009-01-18T17:23:00.001-06:00

Here are a few Christmas Pictures and some from New Years in Atlanta for the Chic-fil-a bowl with GA Tech. It was a happening party in the hotel room at midnight as you can see. :) Love it.

So, I am wayyyyyy late updating

2009-01-11T15:58:00.000-06:00

I mean, where do I begin. It would take forever to update pictures. I will add a few Christmas pics. Most of you have a facebook, so you can see them all there. It's much quicker to add to it. Well, we had a wonderful holiday, as expected. Kade had to get tubes just before Christmas but it turned out fine since he got sooo much better. It seems December was full of sickness before that time with myself and Kade. So, I recommend tubes if they are recommended. It took literally 10 minutes. But, handing him over to that nurse beforehand was a different story. Wow, I mean talk about trust and faith...you have to have it when it comes to your children.

We traveled to Birmingham, Arkansas and then Atlanta for the Chic-fil-a bowl in a matter of two weeks. Kade did beautifully in the car. He is truly an angel. Christmas was just a whole new holiday this year. Reflecting on the birth of our savior having given birth to a precious baby boy was just a lot of emotion that can not be described. Kevin and I are so thankful to have been blessed with such a gift last Valentine's Day. Everday, even if my day is not going so well, I should remember how greatful I am for this family. He shows us something new everday and trying to see the world from your baby's eyes just brings new meaning to the small things. I mean, I've never been so greatful for a water bottle...for some reason, this is one of life's most fascinating things.

We had so much fun seeing Aunt Kelli, Uncle Brett, Aunt Amanda, Aunt Lindsay and Uncle Chad who we get to see more often, all the great grandparents, grandparents, cousins and many more. The Christmas Eve service was beautiful and we had a great time sitting next to The Hutch's. I could go on and on. Christmas morning was, well, way more gifts than a 10 1/2 month old should have, but maybe we'll regift for birthday. It made for a beautiful display. That Eggs Benedict, thanks to Aunt LIndsay, was, once again...my favorite tradition.

Arkansas was full of yumminess and I gained weight for sure but thanks to Kiki for hitting the pavement a couple of times. Atlanta was fun bringing in the new year wit A and my little bro. The game was no fun, but it's always nice spending time with them. and Jean and Eugene were there with my parents so it couldn't be beat.

Back to work...UGH. What a week. I'll post pics next...need to tend to the Kade.

Mini Special K is under the weather

2008-12-08T12:32:00.000-06:00

"I can drive this thing"

What is this big red toy?

Splits...gynmast? Hmmm.

It's been a while since posting. Thanksgiving was wonderful. What a difference the holidays are now with a little angel to add to the mix. He got a ride in our cousin, Scotty', fire truck Thanksgiving Day. You can see some pics here. Now, Kade is very ill. He has what feels like the longest running ear infection ever and it has become nasty, along with a bug that must be resistant to the antibiotics, so they are giving him the 3 day antibiotic shot starting today. Hopefully, he will get better. We need a 100% healthy baby for his first Christmas.Luckily, I am done with his shopping already. So, keep our little baby in your prayers as he overcomes this nasty bug. He has been running high fever and extremely congested which makes me want to check on his breathing every second. Of course, a lot of the time he just plays like nothing is wrong until the fever gets up or during the night (of course). Well, we are thankful it is nothing more serious and just pray for healthier days. Stay strong, special K!

Noah's Ark Closing

2008-11-25T22:18:00.000-06:00

Well, Kade has really learned to love his daycare. The teachers are wonderful, the environment is great. However, today I stop in to bring Kade some mommy milk and they asked "have you received the letter"? I knew it couldn't be good. Yes, financial hardship has caused them to close their doors at the end of December! I immediately started sobbing. I felt sick to my stomach. I mean, this is the place my dad camped out at to get me a spot. Infant spots are almost impossible to come by in this town. Not to mention, these poor women find out a couple of days before Thanksgiving that they are out of a job in the new year. It's so sad to see this happen to all of them.
I left the daycare devastated. I had no idea what I was going to do, but as Laura told me ...I couldn't panic. You see, in Sunday school this past Sunday we learned about Paul writings in Timothy that speaks about the need to prepare for difficult times. He used the analogy of a soldier or a farmer or an athlete and how the preparation for hard times is what is most important. We have to be ready to deal with things that might come our way. This preparation is diving into His word so we can be ready to pull out His words of comfort when needed. I'm not saying there was any kind of competition, but this moment felt like I had been defeated in some way. I panicked and didn't immediately say "Ok, God, what do you have for me now". "There is meaning in this and you have a greater plan". I just asked Laura to pray for me. As I was heading back to work, I figured I would stop in on this one daycare on the way. After breaking down to the Program Director who must now think I am crazy, she said she would take my little bundle of joy in January! Wow, in a matter of about 15 minutes, God had answered this prayer! I mean, why do we doubt? Although I will miss the girls at Noah's Ark and never forget the love they have shown my precious baby boy and the comfort I have experienced knowing he is in wonderful hands, I look forward with confidence that my God has greater plans for my baby boy that we might can't see right now.

Big Road Trip and a Demon Deacon

2008-11-23T15:40:00.000-06:00

Chad got Kade a tie-dyed wake forest shirt at the B-ball game and Kade was excited!

Wake Forest...beautiful campus!

Brandi and Chad-O...excellent host and hostess!

This is the lobby of ISP where Chad works. Looks like a terrible place to work.

Looking down a street at Duke

Demon Deacon

Well, Leslie and I made a week long trip to visit a lot of residency programs. Although the meal presentations were a bust, we did make some great connections that will hopefully lead to some new docs in P-cola. We took along the Kadester and had wonderful nannies along the way...Thanks to Amanda and Brandi! Kade did amazing in the car. He only really pitched one little short fit on the way up. I wanted to join him since I had food poisoning or something equally disturbing that made me pull over 6 times before getting into Atlanta. Yuck. After my fabulous doc called in some phenergan in Montgomery, it was uphill from then on.
Atlanta, Winston-Salem, Durham and Chapel Hill were the places we visited. We want to pause and praise God for the lullabye CD Darcy gave Kade, the praise baby DVD that Jenn gave him, and the octopus that Sue gave him. For without these items, it could have been a different trip. Yeah for each of you! And, Leslie was on duty much of the way to ensure each of these were functioning properly and Kade had a smile. A nauseated belly required me to be upfront much of the time. Unfortunately, I don't have any pics in Atlanta with Brett & Amanda but we had a great time. Here are a few from the rest of the trip.

Go Ga Tech!

2008-11-06T23:20:00.001-06:00

We had a great time this past weekend watching Ga Tech play FSU in Atlanta. Best part was seeing my little brother and his wife, Amanda. Way to short of a trip. We had a fun dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe and the restaurant sang to Cole "happy birthday". So cute. Leslie and Shawn went with us, which was such fun. We had to stop in Auburn for some Mellow Mushroom along the way. I love that town!

Halloween!

2008-11-06T23:08:00.000-06:00

So, Halloween was way more fun this year now that I have little man to dress up without his permission. Donald Trump was a hit. Check out some of the pics. He even fell asleep on the job at the end of the night. The Lukester was lookin' sharp in his cowboy hat. The pictures are backwards. It starts at the bottom with the hair doo Leslie and I fixed for him.

Shout out to my Original Special "K"

2008-10-26T22:18:00.000-05:00

Blessed is everyone who fears the Lord, who walks in his ways! You shall eat the fruit of the labor of your hands; you shall be blessed, and it shall be well with you. Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house; your children will be like olive shoots around your table. Behold, thus shall the man be blessed who fears the Lord. The Lord bless you from Zion! May you see the prosperity of Jerusalem all the days of your life! May you see your children's children! Peace be upon Israel! (Psalm 128)

We went to the beach this Sunday to take some pics for Christmas cards, and this is one I snapped that I will share. We had a wonderful weekend as a family, not so good with the football. However, I wanted to take a moment to express my sincere appreciation and admiration of my husband, Coach Kevin Jay Rollins. He is one of the most passionate individuals I know when it comes to their career. He works extremely long hours day in and day out with very little financial rewards as anyone that is a teacher/coach can relate. Coaching is truly a calling and my friends, it is his. I couldn't see him doing anything else. Not only does he teach high school kids all day and help shape the lives of the future generations, he works almost an equally long amount of time coaching young men in the hopes of instilling character and well, let's be honest, win some ball games. Most importantly, he wants to influence these young men and hopefully make a difference in their lives. That, he does. I am truly blessed and grateful for his hard work, dedication and love for what he does day in and day out. I love you Kev, wife.

Hebrews 13:20-21 ~ May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

Running Scared 5K

2008-10-26T14:27:00.000-05:00

After the run

The Donald

Me and Janice all bedazzled in our sporting gear

Janice, Kade and I conquered the Running Scared 5K in Orange Beach, all dazzled up. The first half of the race was great until we hit the bark trail with a stroller. I mean Phil and Ted's designed a great one, but it felt like pushing 50+lbs over the bark with a swamp on both sides. Then, the mosquitoes came a swarming, Kade started screaming nonstop, so I had to carry him the last mile! Geeze. As soon as we crossed the finish line, he was fine. Of course. Well, we will come more prepared next year. Otherwise, we had a wonderful time and it was a nice change in scenery from our usual races. Dressing up is always fun. Look at The Donald. We will fix his hair better on Halloween, but isn't he dashing? Love, Trump.

Kade and his first pumpkin patch!

2008-10-25T00:37:00.000-05:00

We stopped at the pumpkin patch in Clanton on our way home from B'ham. It was quite the set up. There were kids everywhere and beautiful areas for pictures. Here's a few.

Trip to Birmingham to see Fam!

2008-10-25T00:17:00.001-05:00

It's always so great to go to Birmingham to visit family. I miss my grandparents and cousins all the time. I miss those Sunday lunches where we all went to mamaws for the best homemade chicken fingers on the planet. I miss the smell of breakfast cookin' in the morning and following that smell to the sweetest lady on earth in the kitchen workin' on biscuits, eggs, bacon, fabulous gravy and of course, chocolate syrup. I miss all the cousins seeing who they were going to pick on that day (kevin, I always tried to get your back). There's just nothing like family. Jean & Eugene (first of all, how cute is that) are the foundation of my great family. Shout out to all the Pritchetts. I also love the hills and green of Birmingham. Pensacola is fantastic, don't get me wrong. We do have the best beaches in the world and I love the historic factor. However, there's just nothing like going home to the place where you were raised. Here's some pics from our latest trip.

Boo at the Zoo with Allison & Madeline

2008-10-25T00:11:00.000-05:00

We had a great time with Allison, Madeline & Aunt Caw Caw and another sweet family. For more pics, you can go to The Solomons blog on the left.

Tiny Toes in the Sand

2008-10-12T18:59:00.000-05:00

This is a little long, but the last 15 seconds or so are the best. As you can see, we did whatever it took to try to get Kade to look up for a good photo. This was his first time to the beach. Yes, we are terrible...we live at the best beaches and just now took him. However, he loved it. He kept picking up the sand and putting it down over and over and over again. The last part is Granna and I trying to get his attention with our version of "Amazing Grace" and "Victory in Jesus". As I have said before, Kade prefers you to be off key.

Auburn, Come On with the Parking Rules!

2008-09-21T21:34:00.000-05:00

So, we finally make it back to Auburn for the big game this past weekend. I'm so pumped to take Kade to tailgate for the very first time. We always go hang out with Jennifer & Darcy and their families. We miss you, Tiff! She's too busy flying around the country. Anyway, we were all having a grand ole time for a couple of hours before I headed to take Kade to the babysitter. I was meeting Kevin at the car, and I got the call. He was lost. Suddenly, my heart felt like it dropped a foot. As I watched the tow truckers go to town on the way, I felt sick to my stomach. We had been towed from the place we have parked for the past several years. There is no where to park unless you purchase a spot, or you live in a condo/apt./whatever. Therefore, people are actually buying condos so they have a place to hang out and a spot to park! Well, they do have the money and it would be amazing. And, the tow folks are throwing high fives as they pick up these cars at $100 a pop. I wanted to get my car as quick as possible since I had a 7 month old that needed to go to bed at some point that night. My dear friend, Jennifer, was going to drop me off and as we were getting my car, somehow, her car locked while she held the key device but the actual keys were still in it and it was running! Luckily, I had just gotten Kade out. What else could happen? We called AAA who then dispatched a guy in Miami! Like, he was going to help. The police department wouldn't help unless the baby was in the car, or an animal. It didn't matter that we had a pregnant lady, a baby screaming his head off and we were in a parking lot/garage that was right out of a scene from Adventures in Babysitting. Nightmare. After AAA failed us, we decided to leave the car (running), get the extra key from Eric so he and Kevin could go ahead and go in to the game since they were chomping at the bit. Once we went back, I had had enough. I opted out of the game. All I really wanted to do was curl up with my little man, Kade and go to sleep. Not sure we will be back this season. That was enough frustration for a while. We will head to GA Tech to see my little brother. Anyway, we did have a wonderful time spending the night at the Lake with the Baileys! And, we managed to get some more adorable photos of Special K.

West Florida gets a "W"

2008-09-21T21:20:00.000-05:00

Well, the West Florida Jags finally pulled out a win...a big win. 35-0. This is the school's first win in 4 years and only shut out in its history. The school hasn't been around that long, but still. My dad and Kevin moved over to the school last year. Before they came, they had only scored like 6 points in two years or something like that..don't take my word on the stats. Anyway, last year they contested several teams, but they never won. They scored high points in several games though so the improvement made us all feel it was coming. Well, Friday night, it came. The fans went crazy. My dad and hubby were so excited which can only make me happy. It was an answered prayer. I know you shouldn't pray for a win, but it was wearing on all of them. God hears even those prayers we think might be insignificant to him. Go Jags! Here are some pics.

Are you ready for some football? Well, we thought we were, but it's looking bleak so far. Good thing the kid is the cutest..

2008-09-14T13:52:00.001-05:00

Sleep

2008-09-04T19:20:00.000-05:00

Wow, I got a lot of good advice after my last blog. However, I think I didn't write what I meant to say. You see, Kade was going to sleep beautifully up until about a week ago. We had used the crying out method. He did great. However, about a week ago, he started waking up frequently. I was hoping he wasn't reverting back to his old ways, and I just didn't want to have to go through the crying it out thing again. I started questioning that method for us and everything. Well, it turns out...Baby Kade has croup virus? Basically, it is cold-like symptoms but luckily no fever with him. He has wanted to be held almost all night, mainly because he doesn't feel good. Which, makes me feel bad that I was trying to let him cry himself to sleep again and didn't realize my baby boy was sick. Poor thang! Anyway, he hasn't had to miss daycare since he hasn't had a fever. The doc told him to go back to school and "give it back to the daycare" since that's probably what gave it to him. Gotta love him. Well, just wanted to brief you on everything. It is good to know that people actually read my blog. Have I mentioned how much I love my kid! I think he's the only baby that enjoys me sucking snot out of his nose. He finds it humorous.

Update

2008-08-31T22:06:00.000-05:00

For some reason, when I upload pictures, it doesn't show the pic until I post it, so I can't really add any captions. Kade is getting so big and has a phenomenal little personality. I fall in love more and more every minute, as if that is possible. He is sitting up for as long as he wants to really. He started daycare and loves it. He has 3 teachers. One of which is legally blind. She is truly amazing. Mrs. Leah calls Kade "her baby" and he loves her! She goes to get her seeing eye dog in September, so he will miss her. I love Kade's daycare. Of course, they all know me since I frequently visit.
Football season has started, so we don't get to see Kevin nearly as much. Kade went from staying with him daily to seeing him right before he goes to bed. So sad. What must he be thinking?
We finally had Kade just putting himself to sleep when we laid him in the crib. He was doing so well for a while, but he is starting to revert or something is bothering him the past couple of nights. It could be that daycare is spoiling him since they rock him to sleep. Isn't that what they made rockers for anyway? We let him cry it out for about a week, and I just don't think I can go through that again. I have mixed feelings about it anyway. Such as, how do we know when he really needs us? What if he is not feeling well and just wants mommy to hold him? What if he is in a growth spurt? It can't be good for his vocal chords or heart rate? Why would I want my baby to feel sick and exhausted just so I can get out of a few minutes of rocking that beauty to sleep. I mean, these are just a few of my thoughts. I think it's just different for everyone. I did read on Kellymom.com (the best website) that babies do learn to put themself to sleep. It went on to question why we would let a baby cry themself to exhaustion and "give up" that mom will come get them. Sometimes, that can lead to withdrawal, etc...I mean, is there ever just one answer. No.
I will just pray daily that I am raising my child the way the Lord desires. If it's his will, it's best for my boy.
With that said, at Kade's 6 month check up in mid-August, he was 17 lbs and almost 27inches. He laughs, reaches, sits up, rolls over and over and over, and many more amazing things. He has started solids. He gets rice cereal, sweet potatoes (not sure how he feels about them though), and has just started whole grain oatmeal. He loved it. We are taking it slow with the solids. Well, that's enough for now. You probably stopped reading a while ago anyway.

Waiting on the storm to pass...playing catch up with photos

2008-08-31T21:59:00.000-05:00

First Day at Daycare & Shots...Come on, Mom!

2008-08-18T15:25:00.000-05:00

Well, Kade started daycare today and I had to pick him up early for his 6 month check up. Poor planning on my part. He has now forgiven me and is sleeping soundly in the cribster. Here's a few shots of his first day. He is wearing his "Noah's Ark" outfit, and that is the name of his daycare. He's a keeper.

Aunt Kelli Makes a Visit!

2008-08-18T15:18:00.001-05:00

First Family Vacation: Stopped by Auburn & Lake Martin on the way to ATL

2008-07-31T22:05:00.001-05:00

Luke's Dedication and "There's Something About Kade"

2008-07-30T22:21:00.000-05:00

Cousin Luke was dedicated July 20th. He did great during the first service and pitched a fit the second one. It was cute. He finally started talking. I guess that means he is meant for the stage.The next few pics are after a bath. I had fun with Kade's hair. I forgot to flip the pic...just turn your noggin'.

Getting up to date

2008-07-17T22:45:00.000-05:00

Kade with Braden and Quent for Quent's third b'day party.

Kade is growing to love his bouncy chair. He definitely has to be in the mood. Orion is just always curious about his contraptions. He's green with envy.

Kade and I finished our first 5K since his birth. It was so hot and humid mom wanted to die and Kade, obviously, worked extremely hard.
My little donald trump. Love the comb-over.
La-La visits for the first time. It was so great to see her. She drove over from Seagrove or Rosemary Beach...one of those places...when she was on family vacate the 4th.

I mean, has my smile always been that crooked? Not sure what is going on here.